Category: Blog
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My Journey So Far
If there is one thing I can take away from this year, it’s that you have to take things day by day. I started my recovery journey last year and it has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t doing better than I…
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False Alarm
The last few months have been filled with questions about what medications I’m on, what therapy works best for me, and what problems I need to target. There was a while there where I felt like I was finally improving. I had more energy during the day, my mood was…
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Things I’ve Found Helpful Since My Diagnosis
Since getting diagnosed, I’ve looked for ways to help myself (and others) as I embark on my healing journey. Here is a list of things I’ve found super helpful! These are just some of the things I’ve found useful thus far! I will be adding to this list as I…
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Life lately
My therapist once told me that things are going to get much worse before they get better, and she unfortunately was correct. My life lately has been miserable in a way I haven’t experienced before. Getting my diagnosis was great because I now know what’s happening and how to help…
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Identity Crisis
TW: Suicidal thoughts When I was 16 I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. For a long time, I believed my feelings were normal and that everyone felt the same way until I talked to a professional who explained what my feelings actually were. From a young age, I had…
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Diagnosis
Getting a diagnosis felt so bittersweet. For a really long time, I struggled with impulsivity, anger, mood swings, and exhausting, intense relationships. I would get upset over what someone did or said and suddenly I hated that person and wanted nothing to do with them. My tongue constantly cut like…
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Accommodations: Do I need them?
I have a really good relationship with my bosses at work, so it came as no surprise to them that I was comfortable enough telling them about my diagnosis and the treatment I needed. Although it was a difficult, embarrassing, and tearful conversation, I found it important to tell them…
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Sleeping Beauty: Do I Need Help or Sleep?
One of the main reasons I finally decided to reach out for professional help was because of my sleep. I’ve always been the type of person who sleeps really late and still rallies for work in the morning, but I reached a point where that wasn’t the case. Right before…
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The Start
Up until recently I always believed that I had a very resistant type of depression. One that made me irrationally angry and gave me horrible mood swings. One that made me want to hurt myself or others and gave me horrible abandonment issues. Borderline personality disorder, or BPD, is a…
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